New Rules

Today was a pretty disappointing day. New rules came out about the FSA (First Step Act) credits and basically it does not help me get home any quicker. It pretty much does not help anyone with a sentence that is less than 18 months, which includes me because I only have 17 months left. At this point my only hope for getting home is via the CARES Act. Tomorrow, I am going to start the process to for that. I think what is most disappointing is that individuals who came in with me but have longer sentences can actually leave before me. I think this is so unfair. And although I want to be happy for them, and I am, I just can't seem to shake feeling like it seems so unfair.

I have to keep reminding myself that I am here for a purpose, to learn something, and once I have learned those lessons, then I will be released on all levels. And although I know this in theory, my ego I cannot help but to feel concerned. It feels as though my plan B to getting home early has been taken off the table, and now I can only rely on plan A. That is scary, because plan A is challenging to get. However, there is nothing too hard for God and at this point I can only put it in his hands and allow him to work. Right now, I can't see, and my hope is pretty low. I know that mindset isn’t helpful and needs to shift so that I can create the reality that I desire.