Cherish the Day

I am not going to lie, it has been a struggle to blog lately. I feel like I am in la la land, or should I say a bad dream. There is a hole in my heart. That hole is Marv. He has been a huge part of my life for pretty much all of my life and I am having a tough time coping with him being gone. 

It’s crazy, because from the day I got here I wished the time would fly by. I wanted to get to the end of my sentence so badly. There was not a day that went by that I did not cross off the day on my calendar. Usually, I did this before the day even ended. I had a similar practice with each passing month. As soon as a new month would begin, I would already have my mind on the next month. I did not appreciate time. All of this changed when I found out my dad was dying. I wanted time to stop. I wanted to slow it down. I wanted for us to have as much time with him as we could. I even prayed that the day would never end. 

I shared this with my bunkie earlier today and she asked me what I thought time was. This was a big question, and I couldn't answer it. I then asked her what she thought time was. Her response to me...GOD. Wow! I never thought about it like this. But considering that God is omnipresent, He is all, I guess God is time too. 

I know that time is the most valuable thing we have. It is also the solver of all problems. Time is a healer. Time changes things. Time never stops. Time is an illusion. Time just is. Time is what I am doing here in prison. I believe it is so valuable and  irreplaceable that it is also the reason why it is used as a punishment. 

Treasure the time that you have. Treasure the time you have with your loved ones, with yourself. Because once it is gone, you can never get it back.