Peaceful Saturday
Yesterday I began to feel like I did before I came here; depressed and anxious. I thought a lot about my daughter. Today I spent a lot of time with myself. In here it is hard to do that. I snuck away to the GED room to journal, read, and just think without any distractions. Additionally, I think the anxiety of Monday is weighing on me as well. Everyone is so eager to find out about their credits. Monday is also going to create a lot changes and there will be immediate releases. I will have more information on my release date, which will make leaving feel "real."
A part of the "real" feeling is anxiety. It is like you are completely starting over. It is like you have second chance at life, but with a few limitations. However, the fear of the unknown is a little nerve wracking because you just don't know. One of my friends asked me yesterday what my plans were when I leave. While I think I know, there are parts of me that know and other parts that are unsure and afraid. But fear is overrated, and even if I do feel the fear I am going to do it anyway.
Today, I began my bible study thanks to resources sent to me by one of my sisters from college/IVISD. I am so grateful for the opportunity to really dive deep into the bible. I felt like it was time for me go deep spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. It is my intention to spend my final months here really focused on myself. This focus and feeding of my spirit helped to calm me some. It helped put my anxiety at rest as I know that God is with me and I am safe and protected.
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30 Day Mental Diet- Day 7
Discovering Yourself
You Are in Partnership with the Creator of the Universe
I am a co-creator with God, the One Mind, which is infinite, creative, and all powerful. Therefore I am as well. In God there is no lack, limitation or scarcity. Therefore, there is none in me. I open my mind to infinite and unlimited possibilities for my life. My thoughts shall be in alignment with this truth.
Today I accept the fact that I am co-creator with God. I am creating an early release from prison. I will return home sooner than expected. My purpose will be revealed to me and I will be greatly rewarded on every level for the work that I will do in the world. I will create an experience for myself and my family that will allow us to be free. We will be free financially, mentally, and emotionally. We will be free to move and travel with ease and little effort. I will be paid not for what I do but for living authentically as myself. I have the power within me to do whatever I desire to do. It shall be done. It will be done. And so it is.
