A Time for Everything
These past few days have been an emotional roller coaster. My dad's health quickly declined, but he is now recovering. Then there was the news about my relative, both of which came quickly.
The events of these past two weeks now have me refraining from believing that I am missing nothing. Everyone keeps telling me that when we speak, however these past couple of weeks were a gentle reminder that I am missing life. That itself is a lot. I have also been reminded that there is a time for everything; a time to be born and a time to die. Death is the only thing that is promised to us. The only thing I can do is make sure that I use the time that I am given fully and wholly. That is absolutely what I intend to do.
Navigating the challenges back and home from prison takes on a complexity of its own. Being in here I am so limited in what support I can give to my parents. Outside of a few calls and emails, there is not much I can do. I continue to focus on myself and use this time wisely.
We tried on our new uniforms for my job with special events. I am so excited! I know this is what I am supposed to do. I feel much different than when I started my job in education. With my GED job I felt like it was what I was supposed to do because of my education and experience, but with the events this is what I love to do. That is a big difference.
The uniforms we will be wearing consists of black pants, white dress shirts, black tie, black apron, and black croc-like shoes. After we were all fitted for the uniform, we had a meeting with my new boss, Ms. E. She wanted to ensure that we felt comfortable and were okay. She stated that she did not want us to feel like we were "tap dancing for the government." This meant a lot to me because it felt like she really cared, which isn’t something you get here often. She made me feel like a human and not a prisoner. There are some officers and staff who do not distinguish the two, but she did. I have actually seen this a few times with staff this week. For that I am grateful.
