Fatherless Father's Day

All week I have been thinking about today. I saw people buying Father's Day cards at commissary this week, mailing them off, making them, etc. All I could think about was Marv. This is my first Father's Day without him. The first time I wasn't looking for a gift for him. Although there are other fathers in my life, I wasn't feeling the vibe this year so no one received anything but a message. Selfish maybe? Or maybe just self full. I am allowing myself the space to grieve. I know Marv wouldn't want me spending the day sad, so after I give myself permission to have a breakdown and I plan to spend some time reflecting on the blessing I had in "Good Ole Marv."