Same Old Same Old

Camp life is camp life. Nothing much has changed here. We did get hot water back on yesterday. We have been showering with cold water since last Thursday. Dinner is still bag lunches. Yesterday, I ate the sandwich which was a huge mistake because I felt it when I worked out. My boss in the GED department pretty much let me go yesterday; well at least we found my replacement. I can't say that I am upset about it because I have my other work detail with culinary events that has a lot of things happening that I need to focus on. We have three events coming up in the next few weeks, which I am excited about! The next one is going to be over the top and simply fabulous! I am still in awe at how I am able to still do what I love in prison. My gifts have truly made room for me!

One of the things that I have been thinking about lately is the fact that I do not want to go back into the world and it be "business as usual." I want the time that I have spent here in prison to count. I want it to change my life. I do want to go back home to my family, my community, my PURPOSE, doing the same things, and thinking the same thoughts. I just do not want simply slide back into life. 

I truly believe that this experience was divinely orchestrated for a purpose. A part of that purpose was to bring me to the truth of who I really am. I feel different, I look different, and I have acquired a different thought process about things. I have observed a few people who have left to return home and it seems like they are doing the same things they were doing before they got here. Actually, that was their intention. My judgment is that it is the easy way out, but that is not what I want to do. Life for me can no longer be simple. It has to be big and extravagant! it is time to live large! I no longer want to do the same old same old.